Dreaming of dying and vaping

I have been struggling with my mental health for quite a few years now. Within the past year or so, one of the ways I've been trying to manage that is vaping (I have tried getting therapy through the NHS, but can't) anyway, the vaping helps at first, but then it messes with my sleep, and I end up feeling worse. So I quit. I don't usually have any problems with quitting initially, but the cravings come back at some point, and I find myself wandering to the petrol station to get a vape.

The most recent time I quit was the night after I dreamed that I was having a routine scan at the doctor's, and the doctor saw something on the scan that worried them, so they scheduled me for a biopsy. But I died before I could have the biopsy done. I was standing over my own body on the floor. I woke up at this point and relived the dream for a while. It has shifted something in my mind with regard to my attitude about vaping. There are better ways I can manage my mental health without turning to a substance. I always knew that really, the depression was clouding my thinking. I don't think about it much during the day, but I guess subconsiosuly I am thinking about it.

Last night I had a dream that people kept vaping around me and I was getting really annoyed because I wanted to do it too. Thankfully no dying in this one, but I haven't been tempted to go and buy some more yet.